Sunday, August 4, 2013

Say's That You Are Ready

Thursday, July 25, 2013

I Hope of Turning my Brokenness Into Blessing

This one is gonna be personal. I hope years from now, when I read it again, I could say to myself, "Well done, girl and I hope by then, God would also say the same thing, "Well done, my child".

Today is July 25, 2013, 3:52PM. I am writing on my bed with my Asus netbook on top of my pillow I placed on my lap, beside the noisy C5 street with my cellphone's MP3 playing Steady My Heart of Kari Jobe. Fifteen days ago, my heart got broken again by a man I placed my trust for two years. I didn't blame him. I'm just shocked though I saw it coming months ahead. Personal issues he must face alone, dreams he must fulfilled and I add up as a baggage instead of being a help. I knew he no longer loved me or better be honest, I am not even in his priorities which I allowed because I believe a good partner must be understanding. Bad move he never fully commit himself and see my value as a woman and a partner. Never gonna apply this uber-understanding principle again.

Yes, right now I am broken- broken hearted, broken dreams, broken trust all pulling me down for the last two weeks. I even tried saving the relationship yesterday but to no avail. Today, I decided that maybe I could resume writing for this blog which I put on-hold for almost half year coz I am busy juggling life's immediate concerns and dramas.

Besides, I am a God's woman now. Two years ago, I accepted them both in my life- the guy and God, and it seems it is only God that can be faithful to His promise of staying with me. I am hurt, badly hurt but then I have a work at night, an online business that needs my attention during afternoon and a happy family to visit during rest days, I cannot stay being hurt all the time. I must be okay asap for my myself, well-being and to those people to sincerely love me as well.

Right now, I am placing my heart and trust to God alone for I am vulnerable. I am taking strength from His words everyday using all inspiration articles I could read online, Christian songs I listened during hopelessness times and His words I read from emails I received in the office coming from friends and books I have in my possession such as Bible and Daily Bread pocket books.

Psalm 34:18 

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

I also make sure I got enough sleep and eat healthy foods right now. I am snacking fruit juices and fruit slices, have a good sms conversation to my busy yet still-find-time-to-listen inspiring friends I have in the office and at my religious ministry. I tried to surround myself with optimistic people and hear only words of encouragement and get away from energy vampires during this hard moment of my life. I loved myself so must also protect me.

Persistent Pink Purse will resume writing her personal (mis)adventures in her quest for financial literacy and freedom. I grew up in a typical poor Filipino family and financial literary was not part of our upbringing besides studying hard and get a good job after you graduated.

Maybe I might get hurt too in this quest, but I hope I could learn as well. And while I am learning, I hope I could share to you true insights of how a trying woman in her early thirty is still hoping to get her life better.
I hope a good future will be available to me soon. I pray it also included a descent, trustworthy, God-fearing, faithful man I deserved. Right now, I will used my free time to embrace and learn another part of my life no one in my circle of family or people ever tried to teach me. I am scared, but like love I must venture, go on hoping everything will be good. I promised I will stay in God's radar while learning this new path, treacherous and dangerous some says. Allow me to prove to myself that I could be wealthy and spiritually healthy at the same time just like my favorite people Bo Sanchez and Francis Kong. If I could be Warren Buffet, let it be but I will make sure I will walk at Wall Street with My Jesus beside me.

I hope my brokenness right now could be a blessing to myself and to other people as well. I know I won't stay broken emotionally and financially forever.

Your younger self @ age 30 and a half,

Janneth aka Lady Nyx, author of Persistent Pink Purse

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

What is Your Big Hairy Audacious Goal?

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy Birthday, Persistent Pink Purse and Happy New Year, too

A new year deserves something new and that something new for myself is creating this site.

Happy Birthday, new blogsite, my new baby and Happy New Year, too.
A new journey has begun.

Do not be afraid, face it and accept the challenges while remaining graceful and feminine.